EvErYtHiNg HaPpEnS fOr A rEaSoN

Many things have happened in my life. Many of them I would rather forget, but for some reason or other I can't. I've learned in the last 15 years of my life what it is to suffer, to be alone,and want death over life. I seem like the happiest person on earth, but looks can be deceiving. I am strong,but sometimes I cant take it anymore. Everything in this world happens for a reason,only God knows the answer. I am 20 years old but i feel like I have lived more. I will not go into detail yet, maybe later on. All I know is that I want to have a great life, and even in those moments that it seems to never happen i will try not to give up, because giving up is for losers.