Everything is sooooooo Difficult

Lots of things happened last week. You probably dont want to know this...but for the first time in my life...now that i am 20...i sneaked out of my house for a boy...ridiculous isnt it...well anyways....its a very close friend that i hadnt seen in like two months and i really wanted to be with him. So i was with him...i missed school monday...hehe...cause he had to go to court and i had to go with him just in case they took him to jail i would let his family know. He isnt from here. He lives in the imperial valley. anywho everything was fine monday and then he went home monday afternoon. We got in a big argument tuesday. Thank God my family didnt find out what i had done. i had to go to work.Mmm...i work at Vons on telegraph and i HATE ITTTT!!!! i want to quit but i cant do that until i find another job. I hate my life....but everything happens for a reason and i am just waiting for God to show me what is my purpose in life...in this world....I wish i could go back to high school with my friends and all my teachers protecting me. now i feel like i am alone and i feel lost....i dont know...i must sound pathetic and probably this is the same thing many others say. i dont know...i am tired of fighting for everything. fighting for my friends to stay together, fighting for my own life. i dont know....someday when i am older i will understand everything that has happened to me and why. i dont want to bore you our of your mind so i will let you go....buh bye!!