I don't even know anymore..

It happened a long time ago..it should be over now but it isn't. It hurts so much and I know I have to let it go. But make my heart understand...he is not for me...never has and never will...he sees me as a good friend and i know he will never think of me in a different way...but this is torturing me. My friends tell me to stop talking to him because it's hurting me but I can't do that. He is a friend and I can't let it go..because he will find out that I did have feelings for him. I deserve better, i can get better this feelings have to stop before i get hurt more. I know that my true love will come..hopefully soon. I don't need this, it's ridiculous...grrr...it makes me mad to feel so sad when he is not worth my love, or my tearss...blah. I know nobody is going to read this, but it helps me vent.... I thank mr. McCormick for this...I have a place to go and vent, haven't used this in a long time..but now i won't stop!!! Life goes on and there are many things i have to look forward too!!! okk..let it goo let it goo! smilee!! classyy!! check! okay!